out the window.

yesterday missed a post. reason being a personal phone call. after the call no energy whatsoever.

today nearly missed another post but i shall write down what i did in layman's terms.
got up a little late, left for bus a little late, then after school had literary club. on the ride home i was so sleepy i dont even remember getting out of the car and into my bed. then woke up for tsa and my parents brought sugar cane for kim's parents and mr. norman the club adviser. then got home ate and started homework around 9. finished math, will do chem later. sleep now. my body is physically shutting down. must be the school lunches... just kidding of course. ill need to elaborate but for now im out.

just nearly there.

today was my first day to see if i could finish my homework before nine o clock to play the xbox. as it turns out today is a late post again too. i had just typed out a drama script for tomorrow at exactly 11 59. not much time to blog.

as most of the day was swamped with work, i did manage to stay awake when i got home from school.. and the remedy? not poker this time.. but halo! i called up my dad to ask for halo instead of using poker to stay away. so i guess ill at least use my xbox once a day.

i have the pictures for the unicycle but havent remembered or when i did.. had the time.

an absent mind.

the plans for today were to wake up at 7 14 and take a shower, work on spanish get laundry done and at 12 00 arrive at nick's house for his birthday. instead i didnt wake up till 10 and was only able to eat and take a shower in the morning. i hadnt wrapped nick's present yet so i used tissue paper (the one he used for my birthday) and a caprisun box with resident evil, two in one dvd case. while wrapping in a hurry i accidentally cut my finger, my bad. then i got to nick's house and had a good time.

while there a whole bunch of stuff went on. basketball, we played 3 v 3 and knockout, pool, a game called bag-o, guitar hero iii, presents, ping-pong, and by the end i fixed up his computer. gave him firefox too.

yesterday i forgot to mention the rules surrounding the arrival of the xbox. mostly about when i can play. on weekdays, only from 8 00 to 9 00 if my homework happens to be done by that time. and on the weekends (friday and saturday) i can play whenever if i dont have any projects to work on. and no playing on sunday. looks like i wont be playing my xbox 5 of the 7 days of the week. and by the way. i set up these rules myself to give to my parents. you know how i am on self restrictions.

and now im working on my history essay.
p.s: i reallllly wanna softmod my xbox,
http://lifehacker.com/software/geek-to-live/transform-
your-classic-xbox-into-a-killer-media-center-299809.php

--EDIT
i had to move the link to the next line cause it gets cut off otherwise.. no word wrap for continuous text..

halo.

yesterday i had planned on getting the xbox instead of today. and so to do that. i would need a ride to the mall to get it. my mom and dad are tired after they get home from work so instead of making my mom cook dinner, me and eilene cooked it for her instead. we came up with rice (everyday), hotdogs, and stir-fry noodles. when both my parents came home i wanted to rush to the mall, but we had other errands to run so they ate beforehand. then after a time, got an xbox, halo 2, and a wireless controller for eilene. and then target for a birthday present, and home to play halo 2 for the rest of the night with eilene.

today eilene went to the library/darfur presentation and when she came home, it turned out that my dad had bought a unicycle. yeah. what fun.. ill post me outside with it.. since i cant say i was "riding it." maybe a video if i dont look too ridiculous.

now im off to watch good luck chuck.

plans for the weekend.

today and yesterday nothing much went on.my insomniac sleeping patterns made me sleep most of the two days in question. the xbox situation is getting better and it is actually looking pretty good, i have been slipping the xbox into a few random jokes to keep it fresh in their mind and there hasnt been much to go against me.. not doing so well with the waking up but i was never late for the bus so maybe some points in that.

currently downloading good luck chuck to watch for the half-day tomorrow after school. and if all goes well, then saturday is the day i get the xbox. maybe while eilene is at the library doing a save darfur informational presentation. then play it all day.. and sunday goto my friend nick's house for his birthday which i will need to get a present for.

yay so its jam packed.. kinda. and!
jenn is a genius !

--EDIT
a conversation between me and kim
she gave the impression that she needed a poem for the project i lost many hours of sleep over.. so i wrote her one on the fly.
me: there isnt anything much more than love i need.
my soul carries on, and you are the lead.
the sun, the moon, and the holy earth are all part of one.
i gave you my heart, in one piece but what have you done?

its now empty, the chamber in my chest.
when it was given to you, i thought it best.
please forgive me, whatever i have done to you.
i gave you my heart, what else must i do?

in just a moment, i went to zero.
and in no such story were you a hero.
a villian with beauty that had no equal on earth.
i was put away in a firey hearth.

sorry to say, but this is a story you must hear.
it could be great knowledge that you have struck fear.
even with all the misfourtune and pain.
in my eyes it was worth it, you're a wonderful gain.

har har har. im done making poems now.. back to work.

Kim: lol.

wait...u just made that just now o.O

me: why yes i did.

Kim: ahh i hate you.

lol.

u,..

u..

poet!

lol.

bag of crap.

all day was homework, all yesterday was english and i just finished that a few minutes ago. its 1 01 am and i am skipping a day, because my blog isnt that of just random thoughts but a log of the day. so to make it fit ill just take whatever day im talking about and make the time 11 11 pm. if you look back i have already used this before.

today i got my history essay back and it was an 80, competent was written on there. suprisingly im proud of this because a lot of the class bombed their own.

my friend tyler got eye surgery this weekend and from what i know its not unlike my sister pearline's..

heath ledger was found dead this afternoon. his death was somehow related to sleeping pills. death never feels right. he was so young and it ended too quickly. for those who do not know who he is, he is an actor and plays lead role in one of my favorite movies. a knight's tale. and i want to see a movie he just completed: the dark knight. the batman movie after batman begins. in a statement from his father about his late son, it was said that he inspired many. that can not be stated enough.


--conversation between billy and i.
Billy: -yawn- why so busy all time x.x

Virak: because hopefully, in the end when all is said and unfortunately done. the world will look upon us. and see that we are worthy because of our work, to be seen with honor. and with that honor, jobs that will allow for more greatness to be done. and in the end when we are gone, and there is nothing left of us but our children, they too shall live in loving memory of those who gave their best. and got back what they deserved which was.. a good life.
at least thats what i tell myself to go sleep at night..
=]

Billy: -sigh- we've created a system in which we force ourselves to work from childhood to prepare to work until death. Such a shame we can't escape w/o an earlier death to find us TT_TT

Virak: what a system, within ourself we dont see it fit to do what we can, but in the end do more than we can. and an escape is something in our eyes isnt seen, not because it isnt there but because we choose to push ourselfs.
plus imagine how much that would suck for the people that love us.
"oh how did billy die?"
"homework."
"oh... right right..."

Billy: LOL
God knows that'll end up the case too ahaha

Virak: lol

Billy: Oh well

Virak: yeah how well off ;D

Billy: As much as I'd like to live out somewhere completely self sufficient, i'd need money for the things that keep me happy. And money, the root of everything our society dwells on, is hard to come by w/o us sticking to the system v-v
they've locked us in T_T

Virak: checkmate. and we've not won.

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now playing: the hush sound - wine red

--EDIT
if i wake up before 4 45am without my dad's help everyday till the end of the week, my parents are allowing me to get the xbox me and eilene planned to split. good luck.. its 1 21am.

out of luck.

this weekend was overall good. eilene's birthday celebration pushed it over the hump. for the past two days there has been the english project to work on. and tomorrow will be work consumed too. its hard to say what else happened today because of the over shadowing of the project. planning to wake up at 5 00 am but that didnt work out, instead woke up around 9 30ish and went biking outside to wake me up. eilene came with me.

poetry sucks.

poetry actually doesn't suck but when you have to find them then analyze and put them all together in one neat little project. then the title starts to make sense. most of the day was consumed by this project. but i did go biking around the neighborhood for little less than half and hour. and saw the movie the school of rock not too long ago. a recommended movie.

news with the guitaring.
i found two of eilene's 1/4 inch adapters which i used to plug into the karaoke machine from my guitar. now i have an amp! the set-up just looks so funny ill add a picture of that along with that video im going to get from eilene's birthday celebration.

yay another filler post.

--EDIT
the guitar with "amp"
eilene video.

accidentally late on purpose.

its 12 19 AM, January 20th. the post time says 11 11, the day before because i wanted the days to match. as i explained earlier today was a party with a few people to celebrate my sister eilene's birthday. five people came, two had to leave early and for the majority of the time was spent with apples to apples, worms armageddon, food, high density polyethylene frisbe, and twister. (not in that order) it was a good day over all and i didnt exactly find out of my newer nigh pain tolerance. woot quite interesting billy. but i do have a new potential guitar teacher.

so now that its after the intended goal of sixteen days. i am going to put the consistency i got from this blog to be more productive which will help me in the long run for life and also getting an xbox..

unimportant note: poetry project to start and finish in the next three days since two of them i have off.

--EDIT
i might post eilene's video of her blowing out her birthday cake candles.

bad habits.

so the major point of the day was me trying to convince my mom to let me and eilene buy an xbox. i was able to at least get her to say maybe, but her reason for saying no was my bad habits. the night before i was suppose to wash the dishes but forgot and went to sleep. and this hasnt been the first time i didnt do it. soo she also says i have a sleeping problem that i dont get enough sleep cause i manage my time so poorly and when i do fall asleep im a pain in the ass to wake up. so i was totally prepared to come home from the mall with an xbox with controllers and cables plus halo 2 but ill have to shape up before that..

a mind stretched thin.

yesterday i did not post before the midnight deadline for daily posts, in fact i posted it at around 3 30ish. i got about three hours of sleep each day since monday so i was dead tired and i finished all my homework but my history essay due in a few hours so i figured a nice nap was earned. but when i fell asleep for a bit i didnt wake till 2 20. this didnt leave me much time to do it but somehow it was done by 3 30 when i wanted to put a post up as a placeholder in the archive.
with the total lack of sleep i was almost late for my bus this morning which wasnt the best start of the day. but overall it was okay since tomorrow we dont have school!

then i got home and slept the whole day to make up for the week. ahh the beautiful place of dream.

this day would be the sixteenth post and about the time i wanted to be able to do it every day, but it seems i just narrowly missed it. and it was about the time i wanted to make it more public, but the blog hasnt gotten anymore refined and if anything got worse.. ill wait and see if anything comes and hits me but for now my weekend plans are to start and finish english poetry project and on saturday ill be celebrating eilene's birthday with a bunch of people coming over.

on a side note: i really want to buy an xbox. its only 105 dollars to get everything used as a xbox console, two controllers, and halo 2. but it would be something frowned upon since i need to "focus" on school and the money's tight.

oops, my first missing of a blog post.

as to throw out creative writing and just have things down..
i can now play the guitar without hurting my finger's but now they still feel funny as i am typing all this out.. and i notice the difference between playing E and E minor. woot woot.
my poem was accepted into a young poet's anthology or "collection of poems"
my dad's birthday is tomorrow the seventeenth.
and.. the reason for my missing of a blog post entirely was that i fell asleep before and i am now writing my history essay on Machiavelli.

i wish i had a picture to show you guys.

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now playing: omc - how bizzare

nothing to complain about. everything to be grateful for.

i could go through my normal day's schdule but that would bore. and the audience has a general background of my life and personality. i would even go through a few complaints that occured today, but there wasnt any. possible? no. but i cant help but feel very mellow today, eilene can testify for my small doses of out-of-mind-ness. and that mellowness translates to not caring. im looking forward to this next weekend, four days of bliss. with nothing more to say. or complain about. i do want to mention that im grateful for friends that do actually stick by you, no matter how corny i sound it is true. because even if they dont know it, they are more than friends and more than just a differnet type of family. 

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
--Elisabeth Foley

Jenn: thats beautiful.

Mai Ly: ^_^ <3 ;D

Anna: obviously that describes us. ^____^

Billy: true that :D

snow. busy. lost and sleep-less. moon. seventeen.

all different ways to describe today.
a crazy big snowstorm gives kids the chance to have a snow day, who should i thank for my location, i know it causes problems but im just wishing.. surprisingly i have thought about it a few times over.. and i think that i feel oddly calm plopped in the middle of snow. why it feels like a sense of security, i havent a clue. but snow is a good thing in my mind as of right now.

today was so busy, though not in school, not at home. only in my head. worth explaining but i wont, just needed to have that out there. sorry for that one.

from around 5 30ish to 7 00 i was asleeeep. oops my bad. i had lots of homework to do. could have spent more time checking out my guitar. for some reason its tuned correctly yet makes things icky noise, i think i replaced the stings wrong.. and the 1st string broke again.. why does it have to be so tiny! and why do i suck so much at this. thus today is another lost day.

moon. stupid monday.

Happy Birthday Eilene!
a little something my cousin inspired me to do. the text reads..
"at the crossroad of family and friends, jan hugs you."


p.s : in mspaint.

a quick miss.

jenn now has seen our blogs and made her own. in other news.. a poem for english class.

When I am feeling so weightless and white
I sit and think of you but two sides fight.
There is one part of me that loves you so
Another wants you to pick up and go.
Alone and confused are the feelings here.
Rejection and shunning are things I fear.
My heart, I gave so long ago to you,
Never given back, and no love anew.
But there is hope for me yet to have and see.
I have found a way to set me free.
Please do listen it is not just some game
Poems, I write them only in your name.
I can’t describe love without a smile,
Please stay with me, even for just a while.

with the confusion, this somehow is after, but was before.. and its still the thirteenth.

the seeds have been sown.

since today was saturday eilene went to volunteer early in the morning, i myself didnt wake till eleven-ish. i did finally get my replacement guitar stings, along with a tuner. after that a typical weekend day for me, did have two tacos and just messed around flash for a bit, but more recently a good friend of mine jenn has been added to the small list of people knowing of my blog here.. in fact shes top dog in that category hehehehe. and she was reading through the posts and now im here telling of this not-at-all-but-still-momentous event. the post itself is not dedicated to her. the reason itself is because she is part of the reason i have a blog, a reason for who i am now, and who i will be later. she may not be in my life everyday but everyday my life is from a part of her. honestly. wondered why i have a guitar? well there is your answer. friends are usually equals and not someone you look up too, but when it passes such a point jenn became both. she did say something about an interesting topic i hope she finds herself to be one.
--EDIT
new picture of the one we call jenn.

change for the better.

obviously if you had read the posts before this one, you know that change is occuring, whether it be in school, or social life stability. i think that the blog did do something positive, but it didnt actually add anything to my life but was just able to hold it up and reorder it, or if you must "defrag" it in a way. this is why it is the tenth post and i am still continuing this, still hoping that it can do just a little bit more.

today, was a half day at school. the school day itself was kinda not fun since i was half expecting not having to do work. but afterwards nick, kim, tyler, and alex did all come over. nick brought his guitar hero iii, and we played that for a little bit, and i do say so myself that i did pretty well counting the number of times i have played. when kim tyler and alex come over with tyler's parents driving, we still played guitar hero for a little bit and had the darts out at the time. then came along the halo! we switched off between me, nick, alex, kim, and tyler, in four player multiplayer. played that for a few hours and had some pizza. in the midst of this i was able to bring them into my room and show them opera's voice commands.. and i had preprogramed one to be "opera strip tease" and it opened this picture of my tattoo:

good day.

today, suprizingly was a good day. started off my my spanish midterm, which turned out to be a breeze. and went to my histroy class were we didnt do much but mess around with www.trymango.com with our history teacher learning a couple new languages. and when i took my math final in sixth period it was also extremely easy and hopefully got at least above 96. on the bus ride home, i finally got a good nights sleep and when i got home, we made plans for tomorrow. we as in me kim and nick.

then, it eventually lead to a poker match between me, billy, kim, and nick. playing poker with friends is fun.


p.s: midterms are over!
p.p.s: click on the picture to see whats going on with my desktop. and the game itself.

a mind reset.

today was much better than yesterday in terms of actually being happy or socialable. a few things that i actually did today. aced two of my three finals today, and my english one i am getting back in a few hours since i have only 5 minutes left to write this post or it will count as the next day, in blogger it reads the time you start the post but im going by my standards. after my preetty good school work, i went home to play some poker which i got second place in..! and studied some for spanish midterm with starts in about.. seven hours. it was not so good since me and spanish dont mix so well. at tsa i actually started my airplane for the competition and worked a bit on it. and when i got home ate and worked a bit more.. and went on to this language learning site to learn some spanish, chinese, russian, and pig latin! and while in the middle of something i remember! almost 12! so i ran here to start my post with less than sixty seconds left and i win! still 11 59.

unexcused hibernation.

sleep sleep sleep. all i did today, poker was being stupid and made everyone fold then gave them all their money back, and when i shut off my computer windows was installing updates so i couldnt go back on for a little bit. but after i while of talking to people..  i most likely fell asleep while talking to them. not a good thing. tommorrow i got english and music tech and chemistry to worry about, but im just going to freaking head out after posting this. i havent a clue if the poker system to keep me awake was even working or it just doesnt work, when i can find an excuse to blame it. i hope its the former. shorter and most infigificant post, only showing that i hate when im lazy and i shouldnt be and my inability to do something about it since i was lazy.

more stuff rolling in.

with a new year comes a new system, a new blog, and even a new take on the new years. right now im studying for mid-terms, and hoping i dont have to do much else. along with that i am trying out a new web brower too, heard some stuff about it and it kept popping up more and more so i gave it a try. so far i am liking what i am seeing, just missing the adblocker plus extension a little bit though. but for every single one of my past posts, blogger has made my typing extremely slow, i could get a paragraph ahead of it and just sit and watch it slowly type itself out everytime. now with opera, i can actually see the text come out and move in real time! wow! sadly my computer is that slow where simple things like blogging become troublesome to do.

in other news, this blog is still mostly private at the moment and i think i should add something that would justify it being private at the moment.. i recent came across the question. "what is love?" now obviously being myself, this wasnt any sort of romantic question since ive been held away from that for quite some time, but in all i tried my best to answer. but sadly all that came out was coherent nonsense. and even with further thought, the only thing i could arrive on, even in the next day, was.. something i want. so even with some changes to my everyday life, there is no new love interest. sorry to disappoint, to those who wanted one or to those who had to read this sappy post.

hey at least i can justify it beening mostly private. good day and back to studying, i know not too many people would care for a picture of my backpack with my books in it, so ill refrain. but maybe ill add a picture of my new background:

useful information.

why have a blog about your daily life, if you do not learn anything from it? i am going to now include at least something about myself, not exactly in fact form like "this is my favorite color, and i was born here" and stuff like that. but through the four previous posts ive have made before this one is that i like emma watson, have a friend name billy, and dont like to use capital letters very often. and through my posts i am hoping to let more people that dont already, get to know me better, even if at the moment there isnt exactly a large audience.

my actual day didnt start until 11 when i woke up. i was planing to wake up at eight-ish and was awake enough to shut off my two alarms, one of which was at 4 09 the alarm i use to wake up for school but forgot to shut off for today. and technically today starts at 12 00, and around that time i think i was playing poker online either with billy or my friend from school.. kim. and finally watched disturbia, with some good shots of Sarah Roemer. including this one where is actually has something over her bikini.. even though shes like that for most of the movie just wanted to mention the bikini cause thats how eilene enticed me to watch the movie.
--EDIT
changed picture size.

waste of time. hopefully not.

did not do much today. just got some clothes for tsa and messed around on the computer the whole time but it wasnt a total waste of time. i think i have narrowed my posts to the more important things.. but not so important since i dont think id have stuff to write about then.. but just the stuff that is at least worth reading.

nothing too important has gone on.. even in my head. but somethings i could have done, and should plan on laters is to study for mid terms, wash my clothes, tsa stuff, poker, homework and blog..

writer's block definitely is still affecting me but thanks to the encouraging words of my friend billy, "Billy: lol then write that" responding to my complaining of my brain fart and writer's block. at least something came out. woo go billy!

system failure.

so today, i got home from schoo just like any other day.. but like the other days i was kinda tired. and wanted to try to keep to my system of plying poker for an hour to stay awake. but it just didnt work out.. eilene was buggin me to watch disturbia, thus causing me to want to not move since she was there and when she left i feel a sleep. so though im a little hypocritical when i say it.. but it was totally and absolutly eilene fault from distracting me. just kidding. i wish i had not broken my pattern though... although i am still keeping up with this blog! which isnt exactly more than before but it is progress.

for a while now i have known of a documentary called "before the music dies." and just didnt have the power to get it or the money to buy it for 2.99 or time to goto a film festival near by to watch it if they had it. but i did show it to people, and my friend racheal did buy it and i really wanna to see it now. since its within my gasp, unlike before.

after waking up a bit i went to go eat, and when i got back.. tada! there is matt.. an ol' friend in which i hadnt spoken to in a long while. so one thing leads to another and now im currently getting him firefox and goto to help get linux on one of his old broken computers. i even showed him how atractive emma watson can be since he had only seen her in the harry potter movies and didnt like her in them. i found a picture i really liked.. and here it is..
doesnt she just look amazing?

making sure i keep up.

okay since yesterday i did not have the time nor the brain power to come up with any sort of system of bloggin, even in the slightest way, i tried to at least come up with something now.. and now that i have come up with something it does not seem at all like a system but more like a reminder list, of thing that i should or could write about. and what i have come up with is..
music, movies, pictures, current events, friends, problems and worrys, future obligations, random internet stuff.

since at this time i have no one to ask their option of.. ill try it out for a few days. i hope i can last longer than other things i have tried, and my goal this time is to post once per day, for at least sixteen days.

and speaking of new systems, because i usually have a problem with my sleeping patterns when i get home from school, i thought i might try out something to keep me awake. since i get home from school at three. ill try to play poker to keep me awake until four, after that i should be fine for the next couple hours. poker once a day doesnt sound too bad.

--EDIT
pictures of my new desk.
the desk, with everything on it.
a picture, with me and my cousin
a card, from my brother phann.
optimus prime, with battle damage from christmas from phann.

new system for the new year.

new blog! and i have tried blogging before with little success. so what i think this time will make a different is a system i can follow to make it easier to blog. but coming up with the system will be a little harder than i suppose. inspired by a friend, a family member, and a stranger i will try to maintain this blog by micro-blogging.

today was my first day back to school from winter break, and i did realize how much i missed being back in massachusetts after i came home. just yesterday i rearranged my whole desk over moving every thing. and with the day of vacation a whole bunch of worries are bothering me:
mid-terms, tsa stuff, guitar learning, room organization, and keeping up with facebook and my chores that i cant neglect or it will just be pushed on to someone else's load. and some social issues too, like trying to keep up with family by IMing and emailing. plus learn how to actually keep up a conversation with people im nervous with.

i guess the system will have to wait since i have homework to start.

--EDIT
im thinking i should have a few pictures or a picture every so often to keep it from being toooo dull. ill just use eilene's new camera. maybe my first picture will be of my new desk.