bag of crap.

all day was homework, all yesterday was english and i just finished that a few minutes ago. its 1 01 am and i am skipping a day, because my blog isnt that of just random thoughts but a log of the day. so to make it fit ill just take whatever day im talking about and make the time 11 11 pm. if you look back i have already used this before.

today i got my history essay back and it was an 80, competent was written on there. suprisingly im proud of this because a lot of the class bombed their own.

my friend tyler got eye surgery this weekend and from what i know its not unlike my sister pearline's..

heath ledger was found dead this afternoon. his death was somehow related to sleeping pills. death never feels right. he was so young and it ended too quickly. for those who do not know who he is, he is an actor and plays lead role in one of my favorite movies. a knight's tale. and i want to see a movie he just completed: the dark knight. the batman movie after batman begins. in a statement from his father about his late son, it was said that he inspired many. that can not be stated enough.


--conversation between billy and i.
Billy: -yawn- why so busy all time x.x

Virak: because hopefully, in the end when all is said and unfortunately done. the world will look upon us. and see that we are worthy because of our work, to be seen with honor. and with that honor, jobs that will allow for more greatness to be done. and in the end when we are gone, and there is nothing left of us but our children, they too shall live in loving memory of those who gave their best. and got back what they deserved which was.. a good life.
at least thats what i tell myself to go sleep at night..
=]

Billy: -sigh- we've created a system in which we force ourselves to work from childhood to prepare to work until death. Such a shame we can't escape w/o an earlier death to find us TT_TT

Virak: what a system, within ourself we dont see it fit to do what we can, but in the end do more than we can. and an escape is something in our eyes isnt seen, not because it isnt there but because we choose to push ourselfs.
plus imagine how much that would suck for the people that love us.
"oh how did billy die?"
"homework."
"oh... right right..."

Billy: LOL
God knows that'll end up the case too ahaha

Virak: lol

Billy: Oh well

Virak: yeah how well off ;D

Billy: As much as I'd like to live out somewhere completely self sufficient, i'd need money for the things that keep me happy. And money, the root of everything our society dwells on, is hard to come by w/o us sticking to the system v-v
they've locked us in T_T

Virak: checkmate. and we've not won.

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now playing: the hush sound - wine red

--EDIT
if i wake up before 4 45am without my dad's help everyday till the end of the week, my parents are allowing me to get the xbox me and eilene planned to split. good luck.. its 1 21am.