from six feet to above ground.

as of now this is also a late post at 12 27am.

my sixth period was as i described it earlier today.. depressing. covering fcat math isnt the happiest thing in the world but that did not till my scale in anyway. my math teacher took a survey of the ib sophomores to see who was going to stay in the ib program for junior and senior year. a lot of the people raised their hand in my class. and it's not that i knew most of them too well or personally but to see that many people just pick up and go from this is depressing in my case. sort of the same feeling you get when you watch a movie and the character walks away on a lonely road. now that feeling seems out of place in that situation but any insight as to why that was felt..would be helpful.

fiftieth post! -- i hate spelling that dang word.

took a long nap from the end of school to dinner time. and after that.. a couple things went on. i checked up on all my emails and other common online activities such as keeping up with instant messages and blogs. plus while i spoke to a few people my head started to dug into. and what i mean by that is i started to (for a second) see the world (as i know it) from an external point of view. through the actions i go through each day. time is freed to allow for thoughts to grow. and with thinking a peace of mind came about. but not a calming one. but one that figuratively stood up existed in a chaos world. but still show me what i have ahead of me with the prospect of hope. in short (for anna) i now have a peace of mind that tells me although all is in some sort of state of chaos.. ill be fine.