unknown depth.

of course today of all days is the day in which has the most worthless of thoughts floating around in my head. why is today of all days so special? because among the sludge in my head i wanted to try to find a jem. its getting harder to find them.

i didnt wake up on time again. stayed up just talking to eilene for around forty minutes or so past midnight. which of course created the perfect mind for taking the fcat writes+ thing today. basically a standardized english test with one essay and two multiple choice sections. if i dont pass i dont graduate. oh goodie. only had periods five to seven which were about half work and half play. when i got home though, i stayed true to my promise of not playing the xbox but instead was only able to entertain myself with slumber. this was a good and bad choice on my part. i probably needed to sleep but i hate wasting away on my bed instead of living it out. outside was nasty, muggy air so didnt want to go biking or stay outside at all. but the air did turn to rain and its thundering outside with heavy rain at the moment. i woke up for dinner with most of the family having tried to already wake me up. sorry eilene... and from that went onto the computer for the normal various activities.

excluding the fcat and the following few sentences, the day was mostly normal. but something that was not something done everyday was that i wrote a paragraph for jenn, not intended for anyone other than her when written it may sound a little inclusive to her. i will not lose her.

jenn, we havent talked in weeks. the fact i can use such an increment of time so easily disturbs me. i havent changed in the time we ve been away. since although a long time.. it has not been long enough for anything noticeable. you have been important in life and i refuse to lose you. the goal of this message is to be sent around every place you can receive it digitally, sadly you wont be finding a letter with this content inside. from voicemail to myspace, i hope this message travels and i also hope you read it at least twice when you will without a doubt see it more than that. ive written everything down, in a retrievable format, that has gone on in my head and around myself. my blog is an outlet for myself but im wishing it’s a plug for you to be able to see into a vague but important life.

p.s. sometimes the spotlight gets a little too bright.

p.p.s. i hope the weather clears up. (nick)

p.p.p.s. something important has been withheld from me by tyler.